| well i might as well.... |
[23 Jul 2006|09:47pm] |
thank you linda for reminding me about this safe haven called livejournal...
it's been too long....
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| leaving this town |
[09 May 2005|12:51am] |
not yet heading back to california,
i'm making a pit stop in guatemala....
home of the fair trade coffee beans.
i'm leaving in three hours and have to admit that i am frightened
by the thought of strange and foreign things.
i sometimes like to pretend that i am latina,
but indeed, i am not....
this is new to me.
two weeks out of my comfort zone.
wish me luck....
and to you i bid adieu
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| another one bites the dust! |
[07 May 2005|12:17am] |
yay!!!!
it's incredible how much i've learned this year,
but what's more baffling,
everything i don't know...
good thing i have two more years to get it straight!
as for now, i'm moving on!
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| the new designated library monitor |
[05 May 2005|01:15pm] |
please ignore this entry, it's simply for venting purposes.
i go to the library to study, because being at home results in very little being achieved.
so when i go to the library, i expect a quiet, non-distracting atmosphere.
um, no
our students are incredibly lacking in politeness skills, not to mention they're most likely illiterate
because they completely disregard the sign that says "please turn off all cell phones prior to entering the library"
actually, maybe that isn't explicit enough for them, maybe the sign should say,"not only should your phone be turned off, but even if it's on silent, it doesn't mean that you can pick it up and start talking"
and the whole talking thing.
we have study rooms so that if you have a loud ass group of people, you can close the door and not distract the fifty other people who don't need to discuss every single bullet in their notes.
i don't know if i'm the only one that feels this way.
but people are just so frigging ass rude.
i think that i'm going to designate myself library monitor and hand out "shut the f*^% up" slips,
i wonder if they'll get the point then.
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| life is a hard ass |
[03 May 2005|12:13pm] |
recently i've found reassurance from pretending that i'm getting a lot done,
when in fact i've done nothing at all.
like, as we speak, i've gotten through three finals, and i feel like i deserve a break to relax.
so i spent the last hour watching a rerun of dawson's creek... and i'm still not relaxed.
time was wasted, goal was not met, which leads me to seek for alternative methods of relaxation,
aka venting in the livejournal, more time lost.
i've had this HUGE headache for the past three days,
it won't go away,
its this weird pressure that builds up at my temples
sending painful pulses down my neck and through my back.
yeah, i'm a whiner, deal
i can't wait until friday,
i need a life,
i feel like this year was just eaten up with too much school and work and it just wasn't fun
cathy and i are thinking of taking a spa day, actually we're not thinking, we're going to.
hopefully friday, and then my gorgeous manicure can be eaten up by dirt digging in guatemala.
which by the way, guatemala... oh so exciting and oh so frightening all at the same time.
luckily my menses came this week.
i had feared about having my period and not being able to flush toilet paper!!!
can you imagine...eww don't imagine.
i've already started getting stuff ready for my trip although i still have to go to target to pick up more things
we leave on monday, meeting on campus in the weeeee early hours (3:45am) and departing at six.
and then it's rice and beans for two weeks.
do you guys have any ideas about community service opportunities for this summer
i need something in the vicinity, doesn't require a long committment (just june and july) and does not include a phone list...
if you do, let me know.
i'll be home doing absolutely nothing for two months (well my rotation, but ya know what i mean)
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| wasting away |
[30 Apr 2005|10:46pm] |
stuck at the library
looks like an all-nighter....
that's how life should be,
saturday nights spent under fluorescent lights,
trying to remember the fifty different disease states we've learned these past semesters and every possible known treatment, mechanism of action, adverse effect,drug interaction.
good thing i keep my notes organized....
didn't go to the wbos earthfest today, it was raining and i wasn't feeling for a mud bath.
but around five, i was thinking, i should've gone. it might have been more motivation for staying up to study.
one more "should have" to add to the book.
one down, four to go....
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[22 Apr 2005|06:54pm] |
i went in to work today to get my paycheck and to turn in my shift coverage forms for the summer,
and my supervisors were all surprised that i managed to find people to cover for me.
it's not that am mad...exactly, but i'm really disturbed by them.
that's right, they disturb me.
it's one thing to be cautious when you're employees are irresponsible,
but it's a whole other story when they treat you like you're a flight risk
even though you have never called out sick, never been late, found coverage for every shift you couldn't work, covered when they called needing help, worked full time the previous summer, have been trained for almost everything,
it's really messed up and if it weren't for the hospital itself and my preceptor, i would be sooooo gone.
the sad thing is that i hadn't even realized all of this.
they talk to all of their employees like that, and i just kinda took it as a challenge.
but when i was telling john some of the things they've said, he was like,
that's really messed up that they don't give you the respect when you haven't done anything wrong.
and it's true, i never thought about that... it's messed up!
hopefully after seeing my packet of coverages and my color coded calendar,
they'll have a little more respect.
that felt really good.....
so, it's nice knowing that i won't be working my weekends for the next.... three months,
i decided that today was really the day to start cracking down for finals,
so i stopped by my local starbucks, grabbed a grande soy chai latte, and headed to the library
let's just say, i accomplished a great deal in those five hours...
1)i read last week's People... it's good to know that jen has a great friend like courtney during these rough times
2)i got through 3/4's of my virology lectures
3)i read half of The Reader...it was an oprah book club book, i was drawn in, perhaps because it was the next best alternative to virology (like dapsone is the next best alternative after bactrim for Pneumocystis jiroveci Pneumonia prophylaxis.)
i'd like to think that i got a very well rounded education this afternoon.
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| why we don't have a roommate |
[21 Apr 2005|07:03pm] |
I received this email today....
"Hello,
I'm entering my second year of ********* ******* (PhD program).
I would like to have a modern apartment, a parking space, private bedroom, a place that is reliably quiet during sleeping hours, and dishwashing/laundry equipment in the building. I'm looking to spend $600-$700 plus utilities. I consider myself a moderately neat person, and currently my roommates and I split a cleaning lady for $80/month. I had two or three real parties in my current place this year, and all with the consent of my roommates/neighbors. I need to move in June 1. I do not want a summer sublet unless my living situation is guaranteed until the following June 1 (e.g., I am not responsible for looking for new roommates - ideally, I'll meet who I will be living with for the next year now).
I have a fair amount of furniture, including large tv/stand, two couches, and more than one large bookcase, but I suppose I could find storage if necessary.
As of right now, I don't really socialize much with my (non **) roommates, and I would like a more fun living situation, where perhaps I'd be more involved in ** activities. But this is not a must.
I like to watch sci-fi movies, Family Guy, and the Shield."*
*note, certain information was withheld to maintain the author's identity
the sheer audacity.... this guy thinks he can find a place for 600-700... in boston...with a dishwasher??? yet, he can afford to hire a cleaning lady for a frigging two bedroom apartment. oh my gosh.....
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| you know you're losing it |
[13 Apr 2005|12:54pm] |
i woke up from a nap this afternoon,
in total disarray,
i was like, oh no, i didn't get a chance to look over my notes one more time.
and than i realized...oh i already took my exam this morning.
the moral of this story... sleep deprivation is a nasty SOB.
i think i've decided how my summer will be spent.
i am going to go home in june,
that way, i can go to guatemala, come back, and work the last of may,
then come back in august.
that minimizes my finding shift coverage to 2 months, well... 3 if you count the beginnning of may (which is covered)
yay! i hope it works...
that gives me two months, which is a pretty long time to be at home.
yuki and i have decided that during our last year here (thats aug 2006-may 2007(aghhh)), we're going to move
like, to the cool part of boston.
no more of this longwood medical area crap,
no... way.
we want the real boston experience. living in a brownstone that's next to a brownstone that's next to another brownstone.
we're really excited about it.
it's kinda sad, that something as simple as moving could make us so excited, but i think, in order to really get the boston experience
we really need to get out of our sheltered circle of schools and hospitals, and just live somewhere wild!!!
haha like near boston university!
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| honestly! |
[12 Apr 2005|05:56pm] |
hi,
it's april
and it's snowing.
obviously something's not right.
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| it always looks so easy |
[11 Apr 2005|05:54pm] |
last week was probably not the best week of my life.
it wasn't the worst either mind you,
it was just one of those weeks that i end up blocking from my memory
as a matter of fact, nope, can't remember a thing.
what i do remember, is that i had this weekend off.
the full weekend, no work, no obligations
(well, obligations that i fulfilled, i had one, but shhhh i pretended to forget)
instead i spent saturday downtown... shopping.
it's been awhile i might add,
and i splurged, like, someone who had money to spend.
it was insane, and it felt great.
i had watched What Not to Wear on friday night,
and it left me realizing that if i want more in life, than i need to dress for it
as the quote goes, "dress for the job that you want and not the job that you have"
well, no more scrubby dubbys for me.
ok, so i don't know exactly what job i want, i mean, other than to be a pharmacist cause that's purely obvious,
but i really think theres more out there.
not to say that i have all the time in the world right now to be thinking of two careers, but being in the in betweens,
where you can't turn back, yet, you're just not quite there yet, that sucks.
and no, no idea what i'm going to do this summer.
i talked to my mom about it cause it always seems like she has the smartest advice of which i never actually follow
and i was really surprised to hear what she thought.
she told me to come home.
i mean, i know she wants me to be at home.
but after telling her the cons of coming home, which included: still having to pay rent, leaving my job, and not having an income
she still said i should come home.
i mean, it's not unreasonable,
it makes perfect sense if you consider that if i did stay, i'd most likely end up burnt out at the start of the next school year,
which would be crap, a huge load of crap.
but i feel like i have responsibilities, and that going home would mean just abandoning them to do, well...nothing...
it's a toughy.
i really don't know.
i had ice cream the other night from emack and bolio, the best ice cream that i think i've ever had.
you know how i'm not a big fan of chunky ice cream (except for rocky road and i think that's purely because of the marshmallows)
their banana ice cream is divine, and i know my banana ice cream.
i want some, right now, the painful thing is that a tiny scoop of ice cream is like 3.50 which is outrageous,
i mean, i'd buy it anyways, but it's really insane.
anyways, their ice cream is fabulous. the best thing in boston perhaps....
i'm turning to food again for comfort.
finals are in three weeks, i should really be worried about that.
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[07 Apr 2005|09:27pm] |
i completely failed my virology exam today.
i'm not exactly positive that i failed failed,
but i know i did NOT do well at all
and ya know why,
cause i didn't study.
well i did study, but my heart just was not in it this time,
i felt like i was sabotaging my future as i sat there starring blankly at my scantron.
i am soooooo sick of studying.
i've decided that i need to spend my summer doing something where if i mess up, it won't injure anyone.
no responsibility.
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| sanity has not yet kicked in, perhaps in an hour |
[06 Apr 2005|02:59pm] |
as though you guys didn't know,
i think my friends are so freakin adorable!!!
yes you, and you and yeah, you too, ok, i guess...
i was checking out myspace because really, i am not a member, purely a stalker
and you guys are cute,
yeah, you know who i'm talking about.
ok you probably don't
and you probably think i'm weird too
it's ok, that's love, that's what it's all about
last summer i lived off of dunkin donut's caramel iced latte.
i needed it to survive
and so i decided that since today was a high 62 degrees, i would get one
i think i've had exactly 10cc's worth... and i am WIREDDDD
that caramel sure kicks you where it counts.
so anyways, i was reading sophia's my space...ohhh am i not supposed to say names?????
ok well i did,
and it was sooo funny,
maybe i'm just deranged and haven't had enough humor lately in my life.
but you sister, are funny!!!!
and linda oh crap, i just said another name...ughhhh
but linda, has all these cute pictures, sooooo adorable!
i love you guys, you're great!!!!
oh so i got the evite to xuan's baby shower, and i'm sooooo sad, it's like, after my finals, but right before guatemala
and i can't gooooo!!!!
by the way, has anyone accessed any of the gift registry sites cause the last time i checked, she's got a password on the pottery barn one and nothing shows up at target...
that's really limiting!
like to nothing!
anywhooo, i so should be studying my ass off like crazy right now, and i just can't, i ammmm high on life otherwise known as the medium latte.
thats the cool thing about dunkin donuts, it's like, all-american, non of that vente, grande, tall schmap, no, if you want a small, it's small
well, yeah, nothing is new with me. surprise surprise.
i am boring, i need to meet more guys, shmooze a little more, live a little more.....
ok alright i'm gonna go bye!
by the way, i really don't talk to ya'll enough, i need to, i will. trust me, no don't trust, me
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| words from the wise |
[26 Mar 2005|09:58pm] |
this one MUST go down in the book.
today at the easter vigil mass, baby liam was baptized into the catholic church.
and as the priest said his homily, he held the tiny baby in his arms,
and he was like, "the thing i love most about babies are their hands, they're like our hands, but small."
CLASSIC!
happy easter!!!!
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[17 Mar 2005|10:23pm] |
i think i'm about to have a nervous breakdown
i've been searching for the past four hours for a job this summer back home,
all i'm asking for is an inpatient pharmacy just like my wonderful pharmacy, just located in california.
the sad fact is that it would probably be impossible for me to convince anyone to hire me so that i can end up leaving after three months.
i don't even need to really find a job.
i have the perfect job right here, but i want to go home
finding a job back home would be the perfect excuse to leave behind an empty, paid for apartment, a job that i promised i'd dedicate more time to, and the class that i decided i'm not going to waste my money taking.
but without that, i have no reason to go home, besides that fact that i feel like i miss everyone and everything and that life here is nothing more than incomplete.
i need to slow down and breathe and study.
i need a drink.
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[01 Mar 2005|02:59pm] |
for the first time, in a long time,
i feel GREAT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
it's snowing outside, but who cares,
i have to work for free tomorrow,
ehhh, no biggie!
cause i'm going HOME!!!!!
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[21 Feb 2005|11:59am] |
the snow piles had disappeared with what i thought was the slow progression to spring.
i was wrong...
it's snowing again.
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[17 Feb 2005|12:40pm] |
i just though i'd share my horoscope for today 2/17/05
"You're a magnet. A veritable magnet for the attention of interesting, attractive others -- and that's not all. You can't turn it off -- but then, why would you want to?"
yeah, liars....
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